Where did it all go wrong?

Ok, so this is a massively self indulgent post.

Its about the break down of relationships, not of the romantic kind.
I always seem to run into problems with people, i will take some of the blame but why is it others can't do the same, instead it feels like you have a shit storm unleashed upon you with enough gusto it would make Niagra Falls look like a piddly little water gun. It just doesn't seem right or fair, and isn't it just a bit silly after
a certain age?
Lately all this drama has really being getting me down, increased anxiety, paranoia and generally feeling like you've caused every little bad thing that's ever happened, and no-one should feel or be made to feel like that.

Its all about being responsible with the feelings of others, of course you shouldn't sacrifice your own, but jeez, have a fucking heart. Its especially hurtful when you try and reach out, make things good etc and nothing!zip, zilch, nada. Frankly i feel like people don't think i'm worth the time, and some may not but it may also just be a flaw in my personality.

I guess it doesn't help when you feel abandoned a lot of the time (thanks to a death maybe). Ugggh, i don't want to be so blah, but i know i'm not the only one feeling like this, i just wish there was a way to open a line of honest communication between people that was accessible and people would be happy to use, instead of us all just closing down and keeping it all locked up, can't be good really.

When did we stop caring more about others and more about ourselves?

More later

Fin
xxx